Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Just finished fam dinner at my house; cousins, aunt, uncle, and Gam Gam. Mom did a great job in the kitchen, have to say that I didn't like the gravy which was a new recipe she tried. It was much too salty. She has a problem when it comes to salt. She always ends up putting to much in with fear her food will be bland. Nothing is worst than bland food and malaria. (Thanks Ms. Mcgregor for that line!) But anyway, gravy was much too salty. Now i'm sitting on the couch watching football (Miami vs. Dallas) with my cousins on either side of me. One, on my left has no idea that I am writing about him now, while the other on my right is reading what I am writing now. Ohh! Cowboys! First down! Second down, four  yards!

My tummy hurts. I'm full of delicious (but salty) food. I feel...wait what was I talking about? I don't remember......

Ha! Julian is asleep, after laying down for a minute...stupid boys.

Well, I don't want to type any more.....Night! Love ya!

Screw This.

Today was a depression day. You know what I mean? The kind of day when you wake up, and you're just sad. Everything was sad, like everything. I didn't want to do anything, or talk to anybody. I have alot of those days too. I suffer from Major Depression, but so does every other teenager now-a-days. Today, I just felt ugly, and sad, and completely melancholy. I put a sheet over all of the reflective surfaces in my room, did my morning work out, and then sat under the covers for a couple hours. I didn't even sleep, I just layed there and thought about my future. I can't figure out what to do with it. My parents have a whole different plan for me, but it doesn't include what I want. I don't know what to do. Changes are, I will bring this up in greater detail in the future multiple times. I haven't eaten since yesterday, at 1pm. I am so hungry, but I don't want to eat. I'm too fat. I am not going to eat until tomorrow at dinner, and that's only because I have to. Its Thanksgiving, and there will be 10 people at the house. Someone will notice if I don't eat, and someone noticing that is something I can't risk. It will have been 50 hours without food, I might just pass out. Who cares if I do? Food does not control me. I am stronger than that.

No More Paint, But Still Crying.

So, we are officially done painting for this week. The whole house is green, and perfect with the exception of my basement. We just didn't have time to finish the basement too before Thanksgiving, so we are saving it for the weekend. Joy. I have gotten almost off of the paint off of my body, latex paint is surprisingly easy to peel off of your skin with the addition of hot water. The primer, well that's a different story. I got my hands covered in primer when I was trying to clean some brushes. Primer is used to cover up stains on your walls before you paint. Apparently my hands are in desperate need of some covering. I just couldn't get it off. I think I might go back to school with white hands, I mean whiter hands.

I did have a lot to do today, which was completely unexpected. I had to baby-sit twice today, which were both last minute appointments, and I had to go Thanksgiving grocery shopping. My dad, a complete idiot when it comes to domestic cooking (which is hilarious because both of my parents are professional Chefs for 25+ years) bought 6 more bags of stuffing bread than we needed because apparently the 'serving size' above the nutrition label accounts for the amount is in a bag. "No dad, 3/4 cups is only the serving size. There are 9 portions in the bag. You bought 6 more bags than we needed. " (We only needed 3) God. He can be so stupid. So completely and utterly clueless.

I am in need of some serious sleep, and a box of Kleenex. I just watched Beauty and The Beast, and I can't stop crying. Its just so sad and romantic! I want a love like a Disney Princess. I want that so freaking bad, but no. My ex boyfriend would rather spend time being in Beauty and The Beast, then loving like he was living that romance. (We is an actor, he did B&TB recently.) "No don't leave me. I love you!" OMG. Tears. I cried like I have never cried before.

Yes. This is what I looked like watching that movie....Plus some clothes.

Well, like I said, I am really freaking tired, so buenos noches amigos!